the Gospel according to Heath

Mike and I were at the Y tonight, and on the news is a spot about Heath Ledger being found dead in his apartment or wherever it is that he lived. As I continued running and such, my mind was wondering and thinking about how this death is part of God's plan. If Heath wasn't a Christian, some people might ask how it could be used as part of His plan, or if it was even part of it. Well, for that, the only answer I can come up with is that killing yourself is not acting in the will of God; He would never want you to actively take your life. But, I would also suggest that even though this act was outside of the will of God, it can be used by Him in the lives of others-for instance, in my own. Not that I'm a huge Heath Ledger fan, and wanted to see all his latest movies and boned up on all the latest gossip (though he was good at what he did), it really got me thinking. So, now, Heath is dead, and if he wasn't a Christian, he's in Hell. Plain and simple. While its a horrible thought, and not one I enjoy thinking about, it's just the fact. And the thing that got me most about the situation is that I realized I spend so much of my time thinking and worrying about whether or not I'm getting it right, or I'm doing enough of spending enough time doing the things that I "should" be doing as a Christian, but not nearly enough time worrying about others. I don't want to ever have to think about anyone I know burning away and suffering for all of eternity. I can't live with that king of weight on my shoulders. Not that it is a new "goal" or anything like that, but this has been an interesting wake up call of sorts. So here's to you, Heath. Thank you for opening my eyes to what I've been missing.